Snob

 Dear Diary,

I was just reminded of how much of a snob I've become. I'm sure that when I was a kid, while I could be super bossy, I was not snobby. Compared to my middle and high school classmates, I'm fairly certain I was not a snob. However, they seemed like it because they were all super rich - my state's 1%. Next to them, I was pretty poor ... but it's only been in the last decade that I've realised how well-off I was growing up. It's been an even shorter time that I've realised that I actually look down on a lot of people. When did that even happen?

Just now, I was looking at a job in Busan - a university job, which is what I want, but then I started thinking about all the good (and annoying expensive) food Seoul has to offer. I'm sure Busan has good food, but to me ... I have this view that Busan, Korea's second biggest city, and its suburbs don't compare to Seoul and its suburbs. I'm not even Korean, so why do I have this view? Why do I think my biological half-sister, Sujin Kim; my nieces and nephew, Eunseo, Gyeongmin and Minseol (or Minseo? I haven't met her, so I'm not sure); and my only (that I know of) maternal cousin, Miseong, live as country bumpkins when Busan is a thriving city?

I'm not sure what happened, but clearly something did. This isn't even my country, yet I have the old-fashioned (like early 1990s) thought that anything outside of Seoul is just countryside. Even before this drama, I'm pretty sure I felt that way since I lived in Suwon back in 2010.

But who knows? I don't. I just know that I wasn't like this before.

*~Lili~*