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 Dear Diary ...

As always, I start a blog and, after a few days, stop. ^^

It's not that I get bored, but ... I've forgotten what a routine is. As a grad student, there really isn't much of a routine. Now, as I search for a job after graduating at the wrong time in life, my days are filled with chaos. Not bad things, but ... just ... not a routine at all, except wake up and play games. Which games, though, vary as does the amount of time I spend playing. So ... yeah ... I need to work on having a routine, but with nothing to look forward to in life, it's hard.

I mean ... even if I hate working, I look forward to a paycheck, but as an unemployed bum ... yeah ... I don't have a reason to get up in the morning. I don't have a reason to keep up with self-care as much as I would when working (I mean, I still take a shower, brush my teeth, wash my face, etc., but I might not be so great with clothes).

Sigh. And it's humid as f***. It's basically midnight, and it's 81 outside (that's 27.2 for anyone who isn't American), but the RealFeel temp ... at midnight ... is 90 (32.2). I have a fan blowing directly on me and feel as sticky as a flytrap. Gross. Just an hour ago, it was 81 and felt like 92 (33.3), so at least the humidity is lessening ... but not at a rate that I appreciate.

Tomorrow the high is supposed to be 90 (32.2) with a RealFeel of 100 (37.8). Not looking forward to that.

Anyway, having heard recently that writing is good for destressing, so will try to write more. I can't really whine to people I know - somehow I don't feel comfortable whining cuz then I look like a baby ... or a whiny b**** ... or an overprivileged Asian who hasn't experienced hardships or something like that ... so, I'll whine here. The previous posts haven't been viewed ... ever ... so I think this is a safe place to whine.

Until next time (which is hopefully soonish) ...

*~Lili~*

Edit: Just kidding. Apparently, there have been 10 views since February. Not sure how many of those were me (you used to be able to tell Google not to count you ... but I can't find the option for that now). I'm pretty sure I'm 6 of those 10 though. XD